Today I was critizced for not hanging out with my friends from high school enough and for prioritizing my boyfriend over everyone.
I have one best friend who happens to be my boyfriends sister. We don’t hang out often but that’s my choice. I don’t feel the need to hang out with my friends or even my boyfriend. That doesn’t mean I don’t want to though, I’m just not going to make a move to have plans.
My friends from high school are cool but I was never fully immersed in their group because I was never allowed to really do anything in high school. My curfew was 9 and that limited what I could do with my friends. Their group is also full of people I don’t really like to spend time with if I don’t have to.
My friends from high school also don’t really want to hang out with me. I’ve reached out before but it has always been unfulfilled plans. It makes me sad sometimes that I am left out but like I said before, I was never fully immeresed in the group.
That being said, I still talk to these people everyday through snapchat and we still very much care for each other. We help each other when we need to, we’re just distant. And to me that’s okay but it seems like to my mother it’s not. I’m okay with putting all my friendship eggs in one basket because I trust those people. My best friend and my boyfriend (who is also my best friend) are very close to me and have been for a super long time. I rely on them and they rely one me.
I do wish that I had a small group of friends that I could do stuff with but I have that at college and its great! I love those girls and they’re my teammates so that makes them family.
just 4 me 